I wish I could be shameless
about the things in my heart
that are begging to be expressed.
My heart is eager and willing
but I am not.
I hold her back
like a traumatized parent,
terrified of the world “nowadays”,
saying to her child,
“Don’t do that,
They’ll hurt you.
Don’t show your raw aching heart to them,
They’ll hurt you.
And you’ll feel so cut up inside.
You won’t want to exist.
that same burning shard in your chest
when people see who you truly are.
Trust me, Babe, you’re better off pretending
and concealing the wildfire that glows inside you”
But my heart,
like a rebellious, wise child
untouched by the world’s viciousness,
Takes my hand
and smiles, saying
“It’s okay, Mama love.
We are safe.
We are safe now.
And we will always be safe.”
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I once met a woman
Who had fallen to her knees in sadness
Yet she glowed
Like the most radiant gemstone
Gleaming with brilliant light
From within herself
Yet she cried and cried and cried
About small things that made her feel weak
Unable to realize
The strength of a gemstone
And the light of brilliance
Already within her.
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“There is a basket of fresh bread on your head, yet you go door to door asking for crusts.”
Sometimes (or if I’m being real here, OFTEN times), I forget about the spark of divinity that lives within me. The same spark of divinity that lives within all of us, regardless of religion, gender, or race.
And I think I often forget because it’s so easy to believe that your worthiness depends on your looks, your accomplishments, your career, what clothes you’re wearing, or how much money you make a year. Based on how much praise, respect, and admiration we give those who are seemingly perfect and beautiful and rich and happy, it’s easy to convince yourself that if you’re not any of those, you aren’t worth anyone’s time. That you have to fight to prove yourself in this world. To be seen. To be heard. To feel valued.
But frankly, I’m tired of that. I’m burnt out from it. I’m exhausted. And I think I’m done playing that game. I want to unwind from all that.
With that, I truly believe there is a better way. An easier way. Trees have no trouble growing tall and strong. Flowers have no trouble blossoming in the spring. Nature all around us effortlessly thrives. So why should we constantly have to fight our way to happiness? Why can’t we trust in this power, that same power that forms little babies in a womb or makes seeds into big oak tress, to lead our lives for us? I certainly want to, but like I said, I often forget.
I write to keep myself sane. I write because sometimes I need that internal voice in my head to be written down in physical form so I can actually pay attention to it. And I find that when I don’t write, I’m either depressed, repressed, or suppressed.
I also write to remind myself of things I’ve fallen in love with. Things that make me happy to think about. Like destiny. Or the Universe. Or God. Or the truly wonderful blessings that are always in my life. And how I’m already amazing. And how everyone else is already amazing. And we don’t need to be anything else but how we are, exactly in this moment. With all of our flaws and struggles and issues. Beautiful, divine chaos!
Kisses & Meows,
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Do you have a wildly amazing vision for your life?
Are you eager to pursue this vision, but find there are certain mental blocks holding you back?
That was exactly me. Actually, that’s still me right now. I wake up with a rush of excitement and eagerness to move closer to my dreams, but it quickly disappears when I think of all the individual steps I need to take to actualize those dreams.
I procrastinate. I pace around my house. I snack on junk food. I criticize myself endlessly.
There is this tension that occurs when I try to sit down and do anything meaningful, anything that’s worth doing. I’m still a big believer in “following your joy” but I know that it’s not always that simple or black & white.
Sometimes what we need to do the most gives us the most pain and anxiety.
And that’s okay.
I created this daily planner for people like myself who feel the pain & resistance of doing the work that we are called to do in this life.
The path to create an amazing life and share our gifts with the world is not always sunshine and cupcakes.
A big focus of this planner is to identify your resistance traps and how to overcome them. However, I can’t tell you what your exact forms of resistance are or how to overcome them. Only you can.
Examples of resistance would be any vice, addiction, or perceived limitation. The moment you decide it’s impossible, then it is.
For example, one resistant trap that I’ve been writing down for myself is always trying to achieve perfection, which is so frustrating since this is virtually impossible. Nothing will ever be perfect. And so for me, nothing ever gets done. Or if it does, it’s never good enough in my book.
A strategy of trying to overcome this block is to instead go for “finished” or “good enough”. I wrote down on my planner that there is no point to any of this if what I’m trying to create isn’t finished and shipped out to the world. All that hard work is wasted when it’s not shared.
A huge inspiration for this planner was Steven Pressfield’s popular book, “The War of Art”. Reading this book has changed my life and the way I approach my work. I’ve converted some of the ideas into practical, no-nonsense steps. I highly recommend reading this book to gain deeper understanding of how to overcome resistance blocks.
In addition, I’ve incorporated some of my own tricks that help me get through the boring, yet necessary chores of life (mundane chores infused with joy).
Below is a link to the pdf. It contains a little note from me, an example of how to use the planner (one that I’ve written and actually used in my daily life), and a blank one for you to fill out in whatever way you want.
This planner was crafted with love and made to support your highest visions. Thank you for taking the big leap of faith with me to bring the unmanifested into the world.
Kisses & Meows,
One of my own daily planners that I’ve filled out:
Overcome Resistance Daily PDF download: UWisdom_OvercomeResistanceDaily
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